The final fear I had to face in the trials to triathlon story is revealed in this post. It is finally time to accept fully who I am, regardless of the consequences and step out with pride and confidence. I’m gay.
But, what does this all mean? What is going to change? What is next?
Read MoreSimilar to how just not drinking didn’t help me become sober, straight up exercise never worked for me. Time and time again I have wound up relapsing back onto the couch with potato chips, pizza and Netflix. This article discussing the three things triathlon helps bring to my life to keep me focused on healthy living.
Read MorePutting down the drugs and alcohol helped me to finally experience life and in this article I talk about the ways it helps propel me towards being the athlete I dream of being.
Read MoreIs triathlon necessary? Not for everyone. In fact, I wouldn’t recommend it to anyone. It is a personal destiny decision that I was put on to learn some valuable things about life, that otherwise, I just wasn’t learning. So if you are having trouble learning these 7 valuable lessons, then triathlon may be just the thing to smack you upside the head and force you to grow up too.
Read MoreTrials to triathlon is a story about my relapses during recovery and each relapse relates to three separate fears: self, intimacy, failure. Without dealing with these fears I would never have recovered from this seemingly hopeless disease of addiction. Triathlon was is vehicle that brought these fears to my consciousness and helped me to better myself.
Read MoreFollow along as I explain how this blog has helped me to overcome fear and begin experiencing a quality of life that I never dreamed possible. Drawing from words written by renowned endurance Coach, Taylor Thomas, I put my process into an application that anyone can follow.
Read MoreThe past two months have seen a lot of changes. In this post I draw on nightmarish memories from my past and show how today when the same events came up I dealt with them by looking at things through a new lens. This change of focus has brought miracles to my life in the form of relationship, family, jobs and activities that I never would have dreamed of while in the mire of addiction.
Read MoreThanks to Whitefish, Montana a guy who lost all belief in love now walks beside a woman who sheds it like a willow blowing on a windy fall day. A boy who thought his life was over now has a baby on the way who can soon join on this mysterious walk through a mans wildest dreams. Thanks to God this place exists
Read MoreBy the time the hurricane came to the Wilmington North Carolina coast I had lost sight that my decision to do the Ironman was to help others. When I began to experience anger towards the possibility of a cancelled race I knew something was wrong. Compassion not anger should fill the hearts of men during times of disaster. It was time to reassess my place.
Read MoreI have been a perfectionist who wants results quickly. This worked in a few areas of my life- like strength training. However, the stress this requires does not work for long distance triathlon. The stress this requires does not work for recovery. I had to learn to take it easy on myself in recovery and now I have to learn to do this in training. The results are longevity- and these are the results I need in both training and recovery.
Read MoreI have run into a physical block. My heart rate is not matching with my exertion output and I am experiencing signs of chronic fatigue. This has come at a perfect time, but how will I recover. Recovery has never been easy for me, it is not in my blood. Hence, why I became a heroin junkie and why I couldn’t ever put down the bottle no matter how sick I became. This is a new lesson worth reflecting on.
Read MoreFreedom Using love, Not Others: Love is about giving and love can set you free. Sharing to you is how I express my love, it frees me from trauma.
Read MoreThe hurt from sexual trauma is real and had a huge impact on my life. For a long time I thought I had to live with it, but through recovery I have found ways to live free from the traumatic effects.
Read MoreThe path to get to where I am today is not paved in roses. This article is a raw, unfiltered glimpse into a dark place that lies deep within the library of my past.
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