Posts tagged changes

I Owe Apologies

I didn't think this blog would lead to me coming out as gay, but it did and when it did, I didn't think there was much left to share, but there is. There is more to share now than ever and for me it's more important than ever to share it all. The good, the bad and the ugly. Here’s to a new journey!

Mark TurnipseedJuly 17, 2020addiction, fitness, changes, challenges, sobriety Comments

My Guide to Happiness, Productivity, and Improvement

The past year has been marked with many accomplishments, much struggle, and incredible growth. The new year used to arise feelings of shame and guilt. I would be bogged down, restless and worn out as we approached a new calendar year, but this year is different. In this article I explain a few elements that have become habits which I contribute to my growth in the face of adversity and struggle.

Mark TurnipseedDecember 22, 2018integrity, endurance, addiction, triathlon, growth, changes, development, relapse, struggles, improvement

Miracles Come

The past two months have seen a lot of changes. In this post I draw on nightmarish memories from my past and show how today when the same events came up I dealt with them by looking at things through a new lens. This change of focus has brought miracles to my life in the form of relationship, family, jobs and activities that I never would have dreamed of while in the mire of addiction.

recovery, sobriety, miraclesMark TurnipseedNovember 24, 2018addiction, drug addiction, opiates, recovery, faith, triathlon, sobriety, miracles, baby, changes, new life

Thank You Whitefish, Montana. Thank You God

Thanks to Whitefish, Montana a guy who lost all belief in love now walks beside a woman who sheds it like a willow blowing on a windy fall day. A boy who thought his life was over now has a baby on the way who can soon join on this mysterious walk through a mans wildest dreams. Thanks to God this place exists

Mark TurnipseedOctober 2, 2018Whitefish, Montana, ski town, alcohol abuse, drug addiction, moving, changes, recovery, love, God

Nov 17, 2020

Coming Out and Relationships with My Sons

Coming out as gay has turned out to be the most beneficial thing I could have done with my sons. I was so scared it was going to hurt them. But, turns out our relationships have become closer and more authentic and more satisfying.

Sep 12, 2020

Married, Coming out, Divorce: It Hurts

Coming out while married is a very hard thing. This is the type of thing that we can prevent by having a more open and accepting world. Even if you don't believe in gay-marriage I'm sure you believe in alleviating the type of pain I caused by forcing myself to believe I was straight. We can do this with kindness and openness.

Aug 15, 2020

Under Pressure: What it's like coming out after 30 years

Coming out as gay at 33 is hard. When most kids were finding out who they were in high school, I was busy hiding who I was. Now, I’m working on developing that person with the added pressures of being an adult and sometimes it just feels like too much. In this article, I talk about how I’ve learned to cope. Sober, in peace, and effectively.

Aug 14, 2020

Inspect Belief Patterns, Not Laws: moving past LGBTQ discrimination

We can make as many laws as we want to protect a race, a sex, a religion, or sexual identity but until we make a change in belief patterns the laws will have little effect. For LGBTQ discrimination, I notice through my own homophobia, that I need to begin seeing this community as a positive. When this happens, I more fully accept the gay in me and the gay in my brother or sister. Try it and see if it works for yourself too.

Aug 7, 2020

Speedo Awakening: A release from shame

Shame over my body started when I was a child. I thought that because I liked boys that I should have been born a girl. But a speedo in my 30's allowed me to recognize the man I was and the body I now loved and cherished.

Jul 24, 2020

Body Shame

Body Shaming happens we make someone feel ugly, gross, and unworthy because of their body type and I've experienced it in every phase of my development. When someone asked me how I built confidence in my body, I was instantly drawn to question my own confidence and face my own shame.

Jul 17, 2020

Feb 11, 2020

What Coming Out as Gay Does Not Mean: The Final Post

The final fear I had to face in the trials to triathlon story is revealed in this post. It is finally time to accept fully who I am, regardless of the consequences and step out with pride and confidence. I’m gay.

But, what does this all mean? What is going to change? What is next?

Oct 13, 2019

The Truth Behind The Smile

My psychological make up has made me particularly sensitive to the horrible things I have learned to call myself. May these thoughts arise from others, social-stigma's or diagnosis, they don't have to have power over me any more. But sometimes they do and when they do, I get to grow.